My Mom is a tough old bird

With so much death around us my mom's will to live is amazing and heartening. I only hope to grow into an old lady that has so much love around her and a choice about it. No one has a choice about dying, only living gives us the illusion of power until that moment when we can say, "It's time." She gave us everything, all life and love and laughter, except when she was going away and living and loving and laughing with everyone else but us, her lonely kids, waiting at home. Still she lays there smiling and crying, lost and a little scared, the world she is in heaven compared to the stark metal and tile of a small city hospital where all her eight kids were born. I'm listening to Karen Carpenter singing "Ticket to Ride" and as usual, timing is everything. The three of her eight kids that are left and all her family are ready for whatever she decides to do.

Dad died a month ago

I claim a slice of hell as well as heaven by knowing that I was not the daughter I wanted to be to this man.

It's taken some time and a lot of physical movement and work just for the sake of moving to get out of my funereal rut but it is time to post this and get on with it.  There is so much more to do now that life has taken many more educational turns for me.

No need for mea culpa if action can be taken to combat the guilt and pain of not trying.  It is time to try.

Warning shot & CSPAN & CurrentTV is the BEST!

With the world financial system tanking it only takes a second for someone to think of a way to make money on it. phil gramm is on CSPAN right now, speaking on a panel for the american enterprise institue (aei) and it is amazing to witness the total and somewhat deranged denial in every explanation he has for what has happened after he repealed the glass/steagall act. It is hard to believe this statement, re: glass/steagall, "I don't think a factual case was made for the law to begin with" and re: gramm/leach/bliley, "Swaps are not futures, but it didn't deregulate the swaps." This statement is just a joke, surely, "Everything we do will have a consequence."

As the world tanks, the insane get public statements at teh aei.

Deregulation would work if investors and investment bankers were honest. Darn, there goes capitalism. Oh wait, if everyone has "skin" in the game, it plays out better, guess we have to see how that works if we still allow everything to be opaque. Trust is the big issue for me. Anybody asks, for now, it's about as much safety as you can buy with what little you have left and plan for inflation and many years of privation.

Just now, I saw a clip on currenttv of O visiting the white house press room. He has a smile, he's saying he has respect, he wants respect and that their questions WILL get answered! The camera's are flashing, the recorders are on, the video rolls in disbelief. Unbelievable. the reporters seems pretty well flustered too. Someone yells as he's leaving their modest digs, "Thanks you, Mr. President." It is the single most disparate image I have seen yet. Simply unbelievable. Let's hope the bozo press asks the right questions this time.

Money, money, money, money

There is no way to trust anything about money in this system.  Native banks can lead the way by being cleaned out of it's own bad strategies and building enough trust to become the primary ratings agencies for the New Economy.  Someone outside of the current money is power structure has to be the defacto trustee.  Our advantage is that we have been screwed already and in setting up that investigation, we can simply slide into being the go-to regulator of the cheaters and honest investors.  A person should be able to make a bet with their own money and win or lose based on their own decisions, not have it be simply stoled from them with a handshake and a smile.  If anyone knows how much this hurts, it's the pre-contact Nii Mii Puu.

Come to think of it, we'd probably just call money management what it is, a big stickgame, but at least in our system, it's always a fifty-fifty bet and you choose, no spreads.  

Interest rates are going to be low for three years at least, inflation seems to be slowing but as more business busts and people lose income, inflation kicks in just because it knows it can.  We are PRINTING money, after all.  People who are still in business have to make money somehow, and with gas going up in the near future, ummm, we're screwed.