What has happened is, I have stopped crying about it.  Now there is only the will to write it down.  

I had to start with an earliest memory, but sometimes the premonitions are even more urgent, especially now that it was clear that this would eventually occur.  There was a way to change the outcome, but instead we will have to remind each other, using the most hellacious and potent example there is, Delrae's POV.  What she must be going through hurts more than anything now and that is a good sign for me, naturally enough.  My second eldest sister's grandson meant something to her and wanted the best for her kids and progeny, so taking care of him will be beneficial to the family in the long run.

Have to work so much on scripts now and may not post that here, but once in awhile, this will be the only place to be.  There are family members who must trust their voices and their visions of the future and not be afraid.  I am wondering if I may be one of those.  Have to find out.