I only think of this

My greatest wish is peace, i have to accept that about myself, i am ashamed to say it because i am so flawed and how can i worry about the world when i'm so fucked up?  that a person can escape their own life by becoming a policlone with no immediate concern for family or friends or even survival, holding signs on the freeway overpass warning that the world will end.  Luckily, i'm too lazy for that so i can sit here, read, eat, drink, write, pet the cat.  because i'm so lazy and most people are, we will descend into madness and war rather than rationality and peace, unless we listen to the world asking us to act.  if you are willing, you can hear them, even and especially in your dreams, saying "Wake UP! NOW!"   yes, it's crazy, but who cares anymore?  the world is what it is because of craziness, so no one will disbelieve a peace movement born of total dissolution.  it is a bottom up philosophy, where no one knows anything and we've already wasted our lives and trashed the planet to boot, what is left to lose?

over the course of it, some inner voice is always there, mmmm, peace.