Monday, December 15, 2008

wapo comments always get me

"PreAmeriKKKan wrote:
if you are from an indigenous group and you have seen invaders come and kill your relatives and destroy your home, you tend to want the man responsible to be aware that at least one person objects. i wish i could have thrown an arrow at andrew jackson, for example."

the above comment was in response to seeing video of our infamous 43rd preznit almost getting beaned by a pair of thrown wingtips.

Split-strike strategy?!

Reading a Barron's article on Bernie Madoff's so-called trading strategy and since i know little to nothing about stock trading, i'm interested to find out how cheaters cheat, it is amazing.

Jargon seems to be the one thing that enables people to fuck around with other people's heads and steal from them at the same time.  Here's what the Barron's writer, Erin E. Arvedlund, wrote about Madoff and the strategy: 

"A Madoff hedge-fund offering memorandums describes his strategy this way: "Typically, a position will consist of the ownership of 30-35 S&P 100 stocks, most correlated to that index, the sale of out-of-the-money calls on the index and the purchase of out-of-the-money puts on the index. The sale of the calls is designed to increase the rate of return, while allowing upward movement of the stock portfolio to the strike price of the calls. The puts, funded in large part by the sale of the calls, limit the portfolio's downside."

Among options traders, that's known as the "split-strike conversion" strategy. In layman's terms, it means Madoff invests primarily in the largest stocks in the S&P 100 index -- names like General Electric ,
Intel and Coca-Cola . At the same time, he buys and sells options against those stocks. For example, Madoff might purchase shares of GE and sell a call option on a comparable number of shares -- that is, an option to buy the shares at a fixed price at a future date. At the same time, he would buy a put option on the stock, which gives him the right to sell shares at a fixed price at a future date.

The strategy, in effect, creates a boundary on a stock, limiting its upside while at the same time protecting against a sharp decline in the share price. When done correctly, this so-called market-neutral strategy produces positive returns no matter which way the market goes." 

HolyFS!  what does this mean?!  the only thing i've ever had is visions of the future and right now i see the dow at 5000, 25% unemployment, no doubt. don't ask me how and why i have any credibility to predict this, but considering how badly "professionals" have done "playing" the market, i don't think i will be far off. HolyFS!!  go to plan b.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Ecotopia

From NYTimes article, "The Book That Foretold Portland" (of "Ecotopia" by Earnest Callenbach):

"Mr. Callenbach hopes the book will resonate among the greening edges of an evangelical movement. But the novel’s relatively free sex and liberal politics may limit that readership. Susanna Hecht, a professor of urban planning at the University of California, Los Angeles, sees it as a counterpoint to Thoreau’s more austere “Walden.”

“ ‘Walden’ is very Protestant,” she said. “This is pagan, with a Zen relationship to nature.”

But to Mr. Callenbach and many of his fans, “Ecotopia” is a blueprint for the future.

“It is so hard to imagine anything fundamentally different from what we have now,” he said. “But without these alternate visions, we get stuck on dead center.”

“And we’d better get ready,” he added. “We need to know where we’d like to go.”

As a Eugene Native, I remember feeling that way about the Northwest, especially after reading this book and histories of our famiy before contact.  We do have a huge opportunity in front of us now that everything we thought was "true" is exposed for what it is, a simple experiment that we have to let play through and learn from.  Our major problem is that we do not learn well.  We may be forced to from now on, so my heart and mind is open to creating a place where we can go, is yours?

Friday, December 12, 2008

June 25th - Giveaway Day

Religion does not belong in government, at all.  Our state has allowed people to make religious public relations campaigns commonplace in our state buildings by placing crosses, xmas trees, menorahs and atheists placards in the lobby of our capital.  Same as with the federal faith based initiatives, it has got to stop.

Or, we could go with an alternative "holiday", Giveaway Day, to encourage people to giveaway to friends and family or the community on June 25th, and do it in celebration of a simple life where your worth is valued more by what you giveaway, rather than what you keep.  It would be a way to distribute wealth in a more equitable way and teach earth sustainability with a greener consumer ethic.

If we have to have a federal holiday for a religious purpose, we have to have one that is not.  Or neither, there is no other way to prove that we are a nation based on democratic principals and whats left of our constitution.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Hogan's Heroes

Where hogan is home and we are laughing alot.  there is no monetary value in it, just another thought for tomorrow.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Kuutnuu

there is no way to know who is "right" when it comes to religion.  the best idea is to believe what you believe, allow that others believe differently and encourage everyone to acknowledge the one thing we all know:  "WE DON"T KNOW but we can live with that."

What is so difficult about this small thing?  We can stop fighting about this if we could each be brave enough to not "know" something but be certain that everyone one else is in the same boat, seeking, not knowing but accepting that, for once.

btw, ALL of the displays are our of bounds on state or federal property.  The idea is to be in a shared nation but with absolute freedom to practice whatever your belief system requires without restraint.  When government shows that it has a bias for or against one belief against another, that is tyranny.  Let's face it though, these display simply fear-based posturing anyway, someone NEEDS to be right or their whole belief system is debased.  If their faith is that rock solid, who needs a display to prove anything?  

We need dialogs to help us understand each other, to lessen the fear of each other's practice and to come to terms with our essential ignorance so we can have that to share, at the VERY least.  It is time to come together, but we have to adjust to fit together, not try to force to world to fit to us, or the whole puzzle falls apart.  

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I'm reminded of the Bertolt Brecht quote: "Do not rejoice in his defeat, you men.
For though the bastard is dead, the bitch that bore him is again in heat."
 
This is a comment post from a political blog call Huffington Post.  I do comment as well, i have put them here, but i want to keep better track of them as well as thoroughly cite anyone's else writing here just to keep the content honest. 

love the quote though and that it came from Brecht is even better.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I only think of this

My greatest wish is peace, i have to accept that about myself, i am ashamed to say it because i am so flawed and how can i worry about the world when i'm so fucked up?  that a person can escape their own life by becoming a policlone with no immediate concern for family or friends or even survival, holding signs on the freeway overpass warning that the world will end.  Luckily, i'm too lazy for that so i can sit here, read, eat, drink, write, pet the cat.  because i'm so lazy and most people are, we will descend into madness and war rather than rationality and peace, unless we listen to the world asking us to act.  if you are willing, you can hear them, even and especially in your dreams, saying "Wake UP! NOW!"   yes, it's crazy, but who cares anymore?  the world is what it is because of craziness, so no one will disbelieve a peace movement born of total dissolution.  it is a bottom up philosophy, where no one knows anything and we've already wasted our lives and trashed the planet to boot, what is left to lose?

over the course of it, some inner voice is always there, mmmm, peace.

Friday, December 5, 2008

10k rebate to everyone

seems like a good idea until you realize that if the government decides to a huge "fiscal stimulus" plan that gives each taxpayer ten thousand dollar checks they have just signaled how dire the situation really is and how little of an amount 10k really is as well.  if your pension plan loses 10k a week, how is a relatively small check helping the average worker, never mind how much of a difference it makes to those who have not paid taxes for years because they have not had jobs so will not get the check even though they need it most. then, some do not have pension funds saved, some have lost it all this year.  what is 10k going to do for you?

i have to stop watching bloomberg and cnbc. 

mmmm

macro to micro to macro to micro - mmmm, how what is happening revolves around what we all are together and how we have to take momentous responsibility for what we do, how we do, why we do and how it effects everybody/thing else or else.  "Else" meaning in this case, total self-anihilation.

i tried suicide a few times as a teenager.  how i failed and why are simple:  i do not want to die.  i want to be alive, i want to be aware, i want to learn how to live better and with empathy.  having suicidal thoughts brought shame to me but now i see that i was not the only one who had them and even now, being a part of our society, i stand by and watch our economy and everyday survival are unraveling and becoming so unstable, panic has set in.  No one does well under multiple pressures and multiple people under multiple pressures do worst of all.  How are we as citizens able to watch bailout hearings on cspan without walking away in disgust?  how and why we got here must be explored and solved but right now, we have to figure out how to socialize our lives in creative ways.  the rich are hateful but they are human just like us and they will not like being taxed at fair levels, so there will be much resistance to change at the level we need to bring our world back into a semblance of "growth".  just as growth in the last eight years was borrowed, the solution must be a tax increase.   why?  there are more out there than me who are self-destructive and stupid.  hello me, meet the world.  jeez.  we ARE in trouble.  we are optimistic as well.  

i know how i got here, how do i get there?

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Welcome mat

Not sure if there were any People here when our family arrived those many generations ago but I would hope that they would take our plea to live and work here and give us permission to do so.  We already give our nod to the four legged and elements and insects, and most especially, we have always made friends with dogs, cats and best of all, horses.  Some of these People were here when we came and some came after, in no way was there ever a need to say, "You're not welcome here" until a marauding group entered our waters and started shooting.  For a long while, many of us have been ambivalent about the newcomers and still have hard feelings, me included.  So much has happened since, culminating in the "administration" of "our" country by gwb, but if nothing else, it crystalized one's view about what must be done.  Have a passion, life is short, do it for the People.

Being Nii Mii Puu was so important to me, no more.  I am a Zircon.  Being literate, connected, loved, comfortable, fit, happy, honest, empathetic, dancing, alive, all out the window I can no longer afford.  It is all about survival now, but as a Zircon, I know that we have been here before.  I'm still Nii Mii Puu though, ayy!

So it's possible to forgive those that came after for all that they have begat and begun and lay out the welcome mat once they do their bit, asking permission.  It might bring a bit of balance and humble-tude to the mix.  

My dream is that we get all the nations together and either ride or walk into the Obama inauguration and present that welcome mat and pledge our friendship and our hope for harmony and health to all.  We have to have a hoop and a staff but we won't make him wear a headdress, even I hate that.  Once this symbolic act is accomplished, the welcome is out and we start something REALLY different, but we start is over with real compassion and respect.  We have to start over.  

We have done it

Pre-Amerikkkan people have lived through the most wrenching and enlightening times in our entire history and that includes almost being burned to death by an asteriod and countless earthquake or floods.  What has happened to us in the last century should not have happened to any tribe but it did and some of us are here to document it and to write about those things, those issues and lifestyles, opionions and lies that get us up at night to scribble away, no logic, no story, no narative, no grammer.  Everything else has to be there though, the unscripted thought, the "frist" thought, hey, and done with passion, but unfortunately, no much self-knowledge, hopefully , that will come.  Until then, this is just as much a start as any to continue my personal manifesto and tell my kids and on into the future, what a few of us were doing and thinking during the most hellacious (i have a satan fetish, wonder why) times EVER! 

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Zircons - made primarily of the elements zirconium, oxygen and silicon

we are the zircons, a tribe, a mass of know nothings but alive forever and through everything everywhere, awake and a rock at the same timeless time.

i used to say to people, "we were fish together" when it's more accurate to say, "we are rockin'!"

O appointed Richardson to commerce and as he accepted, he spoke spanish.  i cried hearing it, it was so much of a leap to think we would have diversity like this in our government, diversity that dares speak it's (co-opted) language.  stunning.  congratulations to us.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Politics as hope

Back to the "real" world with a new party in the "white" house.  Strange to say that in such a way because I was sure this country was still too afraid of itself to vote for someone bi-racial, someone not rich, white, or conservative and someone who did not dumb himself down to get elected.  There is still a lot of racism in me so I know that there is a lot of fear out there too but after Nov. 4th, 2008 there is hope.

While over at wapo comment boards someone wrote this in and i had to preserve it.  it's a classic:

"artistkvip1 wrote:
please check 4 truth a sign of the imes may be because fools were trying to use digital technology in a world of fractals... the difference between dgital and fractals is the idea of infinity, infinity in a mesurable scale is impossible to achieve therefore it is mathematically false, in the digital world they could make do but when you start cutting fine edges and super refined mathematical formulas if you use infinity once in what ever the size of the the inclosed shape you will have one false. if there is no infinity then the circle if it is a circle resumes or show the opposite if you go backward that is why you have matter and anti-matter zero is a true number because you can in the real world not hav any of something that is one of the posibilities of a fractal but infinity is not a possibilit it could never exist in real time or the presenst this is what einsten meant when he said all time is relative copyright b. keith vipperman all rights reserved but i will be generous with my discovery but don't plaugarize me artistkvip"
   
I laughed like crazy and decided that I have to write like that here.  After everything that has happened in the last ten short years, the absorbtion rate has overtipped the lip of my glass.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

"Going forward" with the paw pointin' Pitbull

This is the most despicable, overused set of words EVER. "They're de-risking." according to Len Blum, Westwood Capital on Bloomberg. WTF? "It is what it is."

Why so concerned about stocks when you no longer own any because you had to cash everything out to buy a gallon of gas? Because everyone is going to have to pay, one way or another and we, the sleepers, were the ones that let those rich guys take over the damn world.

The greed is good line has helped the "smartly" corrupt executive walk away with huge fees and hugely inflated golden parachutes is obscene. The regulators had a job to do, they did not do it, so saying we need more regulation is useless unless the fed actually did what they are paid to do. They will not and we will get sued by the IRS to pay our share for years to come.

Then we have have teh self-described pitbull with lipstick:

If you can see past her uterus, see what she has actually done, in AK, in ID, in grade school and in college. Until she actually speaks for herself, all that's available is fair, the line on what is dirty moved way out of bounds, especially since 43/cheney/rove. If Palin having "executive" experience gets Mad Mac elected, big if btw, it's time to examine her state legacy and the time to do it is NOW. Also, her family is not off limits if she orchestrates a meet and greet with John Bush where he literally blesses them on the tarmac. What is that about? It's about having your cake and eating it too. She calls the shots here and the MSM bites, every time.

Vetting properly would have avoided some of this, but it does add a "Dallas" like flavor to the campaign. If recreating a dead soap is the only tactic (R)'s have left and they win. Secession! If AK can do it, WA can, hey? Just kidding, besides, it's not over, even if it seems as if the code word for "being comfortable with a candidate" is really about being afraid of the melanin content of O's skin. Kind of crazy since he IS half-white, after all. He is running against more than just Mad Mac and the newest pit bull, he's running against a very uncomfortable slave history here. As a member of an indigenous nation, i suggest we not make this election about race, make it about what people do, not what they say, about what we do to protect our people, all of our people, not what will benefit the few. Above all, we have to think long term, we have to consider our generations to come.
This is the most despicable, overused set of words EVER. "They're de-risking." according to Len Blum, Westwood Capital on Bloomberg. WTF?

If you can see past her uterus, see what she has actually done, in AK, in ID, in grade school and in college. Until she actually speaks for herself, all that's available is fair, the line on what is dirty moved way out of bounds, especially since 43/cheney/rove. If Palin having "executive" experience gets Mad Mac elected, big if btw, it's time to examine her state legacy and the time to do it is NOW. Also, her family is not off limits if she orchestrates a meet and greet with John Bush where he literally blesses them on the tarmac. What is that about? It's about having your cake and eating it too. She calls the shots here and the MSM bites, every time.

Vetting properly would have avoided some of this, but it does add a "Dallas" like flavor to the campaign. If recreating a dead soap is the only tactic (R)'s have left and they win. Secession! If AK can do it, WA can, hey? Just kidding, besides, it's not over, even if it seems as if the code word for "being comfortable with a candidate" is really about being afraid of the melanin content of O's skin. Kind of crazy since he IS half-white, after all. He is running against more than just Mad Mac and the newest pit bull, he's running against a very uncomfortable slave history here. As a member of an indigenous nation, i suggest we not make this election about race, make it about what people do, not what they say, about what we do to protect our people, all of our people, not what will benefit the few. Above all, we have to think long term, we have to consider our generations to come.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Awareness

A sense of helplessness, smallness, quietness, watchfulness, a step, barely registered, even by me and I am outside myself.  Below me, there is a small brown baby swaddled in a baby board looking up at her parents.  She turns to look up, sees me and smiles.  I close my eyes and the sense of waiting comes to me and I know I am inside myself.  Awake now, I see the fabric on the car ceiling, the dome light, my mom's face as she holds me up and passes me to my dad.  His face quickly glosses over and I am blinded by the sun, then my sister appears, smiling and reaching out for me.  I am her baby sister and it's her turn to babysit.  I'm relieved.  I go back to sleep.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

From a .pdf a relative sent me on Palin

Sarah Palin’s Record on
Alaska Native and Tribal Issues
1. Palin has attacked Alaska Native Subsistence Fishing
Perhaps no issue is of greater importance to Alaska Native peoples as the right to hunt
and fish according to ancient customary and traditional practices, and to carry on the subsistence
way of life for future generations.
Governor Sarah Palin has consistently opposed those rights.
Once in office, Governor Palin decided to continue litigation that seeks to overturn every
subsistence fishing determination the federal government has ever made in Alaska. (State of
Alaska v. Norton, 3:05-cv-0158-HRH (D. Ak).) In pressing this case, Palin decided against
using the Attorney General (which usually handles State litigation) and instead continued
contracting with Senator Ted Stevens’ brother-in-law’s law firm (Birch, Horton, Bittner &
Cherot).
The goal of Palin’s law suit is to invalidate all the subsistence fishing regulations the
federal government has issued to date to protect Native fishing, and to force the courts instead to
take over the roll of setting subsistence regulations. Palin’s law suit seeks to diminish
subsistence fishing rights in order to expand sport and commercial fishing.
In May 2007, the federal court rejected the State’s main challenge, holding that Congress
in 1980 had expressly granted the U.S. Interior and Agriculture Departments the authority to
regulate and protect Native and rural subsistence fishing activities in Alaska. (Decision entered
May 15, 2007 (Dkt. No. 110).)
Notwithstanding this ruling, Palin continues to argue in the litigation that the federal
subsistence protections are too broad, and should be narrowed to exclude vast areas from
subsistence fishing, in favor of sport and commercial fishing. Palin opposes subsistence
protections in marine waters, on many of the lands that Natives selected under their 1971 land
claims settlement with the state and federal governments, and in many of the rivers where Alaska
Natives customarily fish. (Alaska Complaint at 15-18.) Palin also opposes subsistence fishing
protections on Alaska Native federal allotments that were deeded to individuals purposely to
foster Native subsistence activities. All these issues are now pending before the federal district
court.
2. Palin has attacked Alaska Native Subsistence Hunting
Palin has also sought to invalidate critical determinations the Federal Subsistence Board
has made regarding customary and traditional uses of game, specifically to take hunting
opportunities away from Native subsistence villagers and thereby enhance sport hunting.
Palin’s attack here on subsistence has focused on the Ahtna Indian people in Chistochina.
Although the federal district court has rejected Palin’s challenge, she has carried on an appeal
that was argued in August 2008. (State of Alaska v. Fleagle, No. 07-35723 (9th Cir.).)
In both hunting and fishing matters, Palin has continued uninterrupted the policies
initiated by the former Governor Frank Murkowski Administration, challenging hunting and
fishing protections that Native people depend upon for their subsistence way of life in order to
enhance sport fishing and hunting opportunities. Palin’s lawsuits are a direct attack on the core
way of life of Native Tribes in rural Alaska.
3. Palin has attacked Alaska Tribal Sovereignty
Governor Palin opposes Alaska tribal sovereignty.
Given past court rulings affirming the federally recognized tribal status of Alaska Native
villages, Palin does not technically challenge that status. But Palin argues that Alaska Tribes
have no authority to act as sovereigns, despite their recognition.
So extreme is Palin on tribal sovereignty issues that she has sought to block tribes from
exercising any authority whatsoever even over the welfare of Native children, adhering to a 2004
legal opinion issued by the former Murkowski Administration that no such jurisdiction exists
(except when a state court transfers a matter to a tribal court).
Both the state courts and the federal courts have struck down Palin’s policy of refusing to
recognize the sovereign authority of Alaska Tribes to address issues involving Alaska Native
children. Native Village of Tanana v. State of Alaska, 3AN-04-12194 CI (judgment entered
Aug. 26, 2008) (Ak. Super. Ct.); Native Kaltag Tribal Council v. DHHS, No. 3:06-cv-00211-
TMB (D. Ak.), pending on appeal No 08-35343 (9th Cir.)). Nonetheless, Palin’s policy of
refusing to recognize Alaska tribal sovereignty remains unchanged.
4. Palin has attacked Alaska Native Languages
Palin has refused to accord proper respect to Alaska Native languages and voters by
refusing to provide language assistance to Yup'ik speaking Alaska Native voters. As a result,
Palin was just ordered by a special three-judge panel of federal judges to provide various forms
of voter assistance to Yup'ik voters residing in southwest Alaska. Nick v. Bethel, No. 3:07-cv-
0098-TMB (D. Ak.) (Order entered July 30, 2008). Citing years of State neglect, Palin was
ordered to provide trained poll workers who are bilingual in English and Yup'ik; sample ballots
in written Yup'ik; a written Yup'ik glossary of election terms; consultation with local Tribes to
ensure the accuracy of Yup'ik translations; a Yup'ik language coordinator; and pre-election and
post-election reports to the court to track the State's efforts.
In sum, measured against some the rights that are most fundamental to Alaska Native Tribes –
the subsistence way of life, tribal sovereignty and voting rights – Palin’s record is a failure.

Personality politics vs. the market

the MSM is worried that the (R) vp won't take questions.  Wonder what the market says:  oops, down triple digits and bailing out wall street again.  whoops, jobs and house are gone, credit is nil, can't buy anything, but we obsess over a Mean Girl's personality?  hmm, wonder what the market thinks?  

We have to raise taxes because of (R)'s

What kind of person thinks that the house they invested in for 200K would eventually be worth 2 million or more?  What kind of industry sells to that standard?  What kind of fed allows criminality of this magnitude?  This rancid economy belongs to the republicans, and any tax increase that will inevitably be needed, no matter when, shall be accrued to them and their incredible ineptitude and greed during the bushco years.

The idiots on cnbc are completely flummoxed by their market.  Hilarious to watch them look at each other in disbelief and then the "experts" coming on and saying "stay the course, blah, cyclical, bull-market correction, blah, blah, blah."  These guys are telling us to "buy a lottery ticket."  bozo's. 

If you have been renting and don't make enough to invest in the stock market, you're screwed double, since you can't be rescued, but you still get to pay for it.

US politics vs. love of country

Have to weigh in this year.  Every day that goes by that the People stay silent is another tragic "24".  No more drama, just writing it down and not making sense.

Going to a calling event for Obama later tonight.  Will also do an event for Darcy Burner is I can do it before I head south.  No way I can stand by and let conservatives take over our country.  I wander around the net and comment about this all the time, in fact, I've become sort of obsessive about it and I have to stop.  It's time to pound the sidewalk, burn the wires, talk to real people on the street about what is happening to our constitution.  We have come to the point of having to talk back and put action into our rage.  

Since Nicheren Shoshu and conventions that I participated in with them, I love our country because I was able to see it through the eyes of Nisei and Issei, Nihon that migrated here and see this country for what it was dreamt to be and I learned that dream from them.  Yes, I cried when those Olympian medel winners got to hear the anthem being played and they were winners but to hear the anthem, to know it was from your country, that makes you cry tears of joy for them and for us.

When you know what freedom was supposed to be, the mundane becomes the irreplaceable.  My thing is to work on the streets and now, to record that for my future generations here.

This is the most important election EVER, there is no excuse for hanging back, we can not afford any other action.  This is for you, kids.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

John Kerry

He introduces Obama's uncle!  What a stroke of genius!  There is no way to explain how Mad Mac has chance in this election except for fear.  His uncle looks like any other white guy's uncle, what is there to be afraid.  Obama finally got me to get back on this page and post.  The constitution got me back on to post.  my ancestors got me back on this page. 

My overall malaise after my sister's memorial, my general unease about racism, my own and our country's, worrying that we cannot elect a black man.  He's not black, he's dirt and that is the highest compliment i can pay a non-native.  He belongs here as much as any of my ancestors who are stuck in the rivets of your shoes.  No human can check out of our collective destiny now.  The stakes are way too high.  Somehow, Barack's uncle snapped me out of it.  Family matters. 

Monday, June 9, 2008

Back from the Hole

Grief has paralyzed us but now our year since is over and their spirit has risen within us, their names said out loud: Patsy, Nellie, Cindy, Alec and Aaron.  Our daughters, sisters, brothers, sons, mothers, aunts and friends, celebrated for the what they did and said but mostly, for how much they touched all of us, how much love and respect we shared.  Our pre-Amerikkkan nations will never be the same and this year has proved that grief cannot be measured, only given a framework, such as we have, to let it work itself out within and without, alone and with all, as we did together this past weekend in Lapwai.  May what they gave us, what they put into us as they left, stay with us in the years ahead so our families stay together in grief or joy, forever.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Grandiosity

It's either gradiosity or suicide, so here i sit.  at least i'll dispense with caps, to save one lousy key press.  

escapism has been modus operandi so far.  apractice of "religion", not christian, has been a defining event but lost via apathy and a basic laziness.  being a "practitioner" is much different than simply attending some pious event once a week.  now that my mood for running away has waned, mainly because i'm too tired, makes me turn to my relatives, my tribe long dead to make sense of some small items on my drop dead list.

how they will communicate becomes a guessing game for me but writing it out must be my purpose and since i have used a lot of ink, i might as well just start bringing up the paper and writing it randomly here as well.  i have no time to waste on doubt or giving a shit what ANYONE else thinks.  who has time for that?

in front of me the continuous stream of sunday traffic is on a small dot screen before me.  a perspective that is cut in half with rage at what has happened to our trails and the animals that trod it, not happy, but not extinct either.  two freeway directions to hell, with poison boxes rolling it's occupants to sunday services or a late breakfast.

screw them.  one day there will be a HOV lane, but the "H" will mean "horse".

a little angry are we?

greed is good for a select few, native people have known that for hundreds of years.  

ordinary citizens may not know, but they have been stealing from us, via their federal govt, for every minute that the bureau of indian affairs has been in existence.  check out the cobell case currently in litigation to understand that the feds will owe us TRILLIONS for their greed and dishonesty towards their "wards", each tribal person with an individual indian money accounts at the BIA.  

Should be no surprise that not only is the US govt responsible for bungling incompetence with Bush but for general thievery and outright and illegal land-grabbing in the past under such scum presidents like Jackson and scum senators like Gorton.

sadly, history has been sanitized to reflect the hero pilgrim, instead of the true image of the dirty, lying, thieving, ignorant newcomer with diseases to spare, sundering everything in their path with the glee of knowing they will have everything for free.

it's no wonder we have to suffer this, it's been in the making for a long time.  greed is only good for the lowest common people, those willing to steal, and the rest of us have to pay.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Ha!  As of today, the Bush Recession is "baked" in

What idiot got us into THIS mess?  Traders are predicting a recession, which means we are already IN one.  Accountability might be called for, but not expected.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

S1200 is a drop in the sea, much less bucket

16 Billion through 2017 is absolutely NOTHING!  Never mind that the BULK of our people are already DEAD!

Holy shit, if an R (AK) is speaking up for us, we're in trouble.  

Those that are left, how the hell did you survive?  Did you sell out?

Sen. Lisa Murkowski says, that the history, re: indian health care, has been "very damning."  Amazing to hear the words, but again, they're words, just like these.   Wonder when we'll hear from Inouye.

Those that are left, what does that mean to you?  When will you make THEM start paying the rent?  This "obligation" is just that, a drop in the big, wide, sea.

June 25 - Treaty Day!

Just a day to remind ourselves that this is still our country.  It is definitely a federal holiday, even more so than xmas, since Treaty day is giveaway day too.

Yay.

Quoting my uncle Joe

I am tired of words that come to nothing.

Blanket Indian 

So I was told that my identity is tied to my enrollment card.  If there was a way to abrogate the treaties we signed, I would encourage us to do it.  The problem is, we would not get any recompense for everything that was stolen from us by the invading new worlder, that it would in the long run make us even more victimized and I hate that feeling!

"What is rich anyway?  Money don't make you rich!"

He's got a point, but too many of my relatives signed and died for that fucking piece of worthless shit paper that is our treaty with the marauding invader, but it is what we have right now.  

"It was 1962 that the last state in the nation could vote in a state election."  Sen. Byron Dorgan (D-ND) on cspan supporting indian health service funding.

Oh, our vote, I forgot about that too.  What the hell, it's our world still, we have to figure it out together.  There was a time when all I wanted to do was blink every white person away, just like my Dreamer relations before me.  Now?  "Kuut nuu."  Can't ship 'em out, so what else are we going to do?

The main realization is that yes, my family signed those treaties, but they are also "blanket" indians, too, and DAMN proud of it!

Monday, January 21, 2008

We've been separating and constituting and re-constituting for only 13 billion years or so.  Say we're a synapse for some other awareness, not even a universe, and some flash became us and not only we non-existant, we're just part of some play, only eons of wisdom and laughter, on many different planes and places writ larger than anyone can see or imagine.  

A Writer is what we really wonder about then. More so, an actor is involved.  An actor that has to be open and aware or who cares what they impart to us by virtue of their passion.  That awareness is us and everything else, all being equal, literally equal.

As for the Writer, can't go there.  Don't mean to, either.

All I say is, "Kuut nuu."

Friday, January 18, 2008

used to poverty

Heard the last of a news conference on cspan with our treasury secretary, h. paulson. Paulson’s last answer, that is revealing and tells me that poor people are fucked, again. Turn to tv and bloomberg to watch older white guys talk about how they need the feds to come through for corporations. Meanwhile, everything is more expensive for us ordinary bozo’s on the street. Some of us are more on the street than others, but at least, I feel used to the stress and strain of always struggling, it hurts but somehow, i'm used to it. Some have never had to even think about it, but for some reason, I don't feel for them.

i have even wearied about making noise, it's so tiresome to always be sucked into staying on-grid, and even now know that that must be part of some plan, that my life has no room for dissent, else i starve. now that is pitiful.

cannot bear to watch or listen to 43, he was making an announcement about the "stimulus" plan and the market graph displayed next to his head, kept flashing lower and lower. It would be humorous other than the fact the gap between rich and poor is larger than ever, and with me giggling, there is someone else who doesn't even notice as they jump aboard the concord for their mid-winter holiday. kuutnuu, folks.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Democratic debate in Nevada

Being Native, these elections can be observed as an inside outsider. One day, there will be some way of trusting this government again, but until then, we keep our eyes open.

Being human, the choices on the blue side are much better than we have been led to believe by the media. The news sometimes points out that the elect-ability issues crop up and that the democrats have a tough road against, say, McCain or Romney. It is clear that the democratic nomination is the battle, no R having a chance this decade or next and these three are acting like it.

They can even be called by their first names now, making Hilary, Barack or John the president of the future. I will vote for any one of these people for president if they get the nomination.

Glad to hear that there is no clapping or hooting. I hate whole "bring it on" noise thing that crowds get into, they have to struggle with each other on their own. Good. The hosts, not so good.

The issues got hit on here but so far they sound similar, but in general, Hil is the establishment candidate, you have to admit that. She is a she, so that is going to raise hell with alot of chronic compulsives but there aren't enough of them to hinder her probable election. Obama and John have an equal chance, but mainly because of the level of fear they engender. If this is cynical and "racial", so be it. There is protected class that hate John, there is a protected, racist element that hate Obama. There might not be good enough reasons to oppose these men, but if elect-ability is an issue it is here. Makes me sick to say it, but there are large packs of our population that operates out of fear only, and this election is scaring the shit out of some of them. Still, unless this election is stolen yet again, there will be a D in the oval office. (I hate calling it the "white" house, wonder why?)

No doubt they all have the prepared, studied, energetic, earnest, demeanor that makes them look polished and whoa, they're smiling at each other but the knives have to come out sooner or later, right?

We are not the arbiter of anything except that which our vote affords us, we have to be there for this, and in an odd way, we have to thank that incompetent, possibly evil, absolutely clueless cabal in the current administration for awakening the rage in so many of us. It is not the fact that there are people we can point to, 43 of course, his women, we know who they are, his "boys", we know who they are, but they could not do what they do without People being apathetic or simply distracted by trying to stay alive.

Nuclear energy, now the knives cut? They were fronting each other a bit, being Democrats, then candidates, but now they want to separate. Good.

The hosts, not so good.

Some of this is pie in the polluted sky but okay, I will accept that you believe you will do this or that.

Although, Barack had a response that I think the other two went, "Jeez, that's a great idea, why didn't I say that!"

The whole immigration thing is going to sink John, though is shouldn't. If anyone dares to keep people out, let them leave. This country was stolen from US! Okay, we cannot ship you all out, it being 2008 and all, but damn any of you who say you have a right to put up a wall! Damn you!

They even got to education, hooray! I should watch the R debates, too, but there is no possibility that anyone within six degrees of me is going to vote R, no, not going to happen, so it seems a waste of time.

Guns! Political winds! It’s obvious that what you say or don’t say here could get you killed. Terrible thing to say, but the whole question can be solved by not allowing them on our ancestral lands, period. We are sovereign after all and some crazies have proven that they have no sense when it comes to guns and we have to protect ourselves by making everyone disarm. You want to hunt on our lands, use a bow, buddy!

The fear card! Yeah, I love this! Okay, the hosts aren’t so bad after all. These candidates want to have a bomb in their hands, tell us what you’re going to do with it. Oh, protect us, of course.

Still, the final answers, a question via email about when they made their decision to run for president and they had great answers, Barack really hit it in terms of what we want to hear. It not if he thought he would win, but should he. Love it.

The hosts were okay, the debate won by all. Though my gut wants to vote female, needed a gender change more than a color change, I am all over the place but happy to see that these candidates are so much better than usual.

Uh oh, Tweety has to describe the whole thing as a power play by Hil. He is pathetic. Time to go, cya.

Monday, January 14, 2008

No one knows anything, no one has a voice

What is so strange about oil is that the price was supposed to be about supply and demand but it is clear that the price is driven by speculation, so no matter how much you cut down on using oil, when you do use it, you are making exporters and traders rich by paying volatile prices, making money for "certain" people on every swing.

Still, just like some fabled economic "growth" that was supposed to continue on into infinity, the oil supply will eventually run out, sooner rather than later, then what?

It is nice to walk and talk or take the bus. Have to think about how to start running horses around town, now that's a solution I can live with. We are this country's true horse people, ay? Hope I don't fall.

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